Band Concert last night....

was really sucky....we played horribly! and then on top of it all, me and my bf ignored me most of the night, and then left w/o saying bye to me....but now, cuz i was really pissed off at him, and i kindof yelled at him, and made him feel like a piece of crap, and so, that made me feel like a piece of crap, and now i dont think that he wants to talk to me anymore.....and i feel like i'm gonna loose him or something, which would quite literally be the end of me.....i dont kno what i'll do or what will happen to me if i lost him. I love him too much, and i cant loose him. I know i'm repeating myself, but its what's been running through my head all night, which is why i havnt gotten any sleep at all, and basically softly cryed to myself the whole night because of my stupidity.
Jazz band is playing at the jazz fest tonight and that'll be o so thrilling to play tonight with no sleep....ugh. i dont really even want to go....lately i feel like i've been void of life: i just dont want to do anything any more, other than be with Hernan, but then theres the whole issue-ness as i mentioned above with him. I really hope that we work it out. I sent him a message on facebook saying how sorry i am and that we should start with a clean slate, and that i shouldnt make him choose between me and the guys....its just a matter of waiting for him to reply, or for me to call him. i dont know....i'll just have to let things cool down a bit i think.....

a quick question

who knows the pro's and con's of student loans???

its hot

yeah, it is hot, even tho its like, 8:05 in the morning. At least it isnt like it was yesterday morning. That was pure HELL!!!
So anyways, life has been pretty good lately. My Senior Project Board Presentation is on monday, at 5:45 pm. I'm pshyched about it. (i probably spelled that wrong...) i seriously cant wait to get it done and over with. Today i am gonna go work with Gibson for a bit to make sure my laptop and everything like that works, so then we have no technical difficulties during/right before my presentation.
Tomorrow (saturday), i am working at the Garden Park from early in the morning, to early/mid afternoon (about 1:30 or so) and then after that, i have a couple hours to get home, shower and stuff before i go to my job interview at La Residence, in Napa. Its a nice little bed and breakfast. I really hope i get this job, because i really need a job, this job would probably be fun, i would get good pay, and did i mention i need a job???
So yeah, senior year is winding down. Only, like....10-11 days left of senior year? and high school in general.... ^_^
I just realized i forgot my phone today....damn. Well, thats ok though, because it doesnt work here in sonoma anyways.

district concert was tonight.

Yup yup....it was pretty fun, believe it or not. We really didnt do much...as far as babysitting little kids go. So yeah, i actually didnt screw up my solo in Cantaloupe. So i'm happy bout that. So yeah, right now i'm sleeping over at Amanda. C's house. We're both gonna go to work at the garden tomorrow.....fun fun. So yeah, i'm gonna go, cuz we're watching jeff dunham....FUN!!!!