i miss him so much

Yeah, i'm missing Hernan SOOOOO much right now.
Even though i saw him earlier today. It wasnt for very long. We went to lunch, and then to the pet store. (he helped me name one of the goldfish i got).
I miss being in his arms so much. When he has his arms wrapped around me, i feel safe.
I dont feel like bad things will happen to me.
When i go to his house, i am so relaxed there.
I can actually sleep! When i'm here at my house, i am so stressed or anxious, or whatever it is that i am, to where it takes me at least 2 hours to fall asleep. Even if i am so mentally and physically exhausted that if i were at hernans house, i would fall asleep in seconds.
I feel bad wen i'm all sleepy at hernans house, Because i dont really spend as much time as i could with him really. But he'll always lay there with me, or i'll lay my head on his shoulders or his lap, and he'll move his fingers through my hair.
When i'm with hernan, i feel like nothing in this world can harm me. And i truly believe that nothing can wen i am with him.
And as long as him and i are together.
And we plan on spending our whole lives together.
God, i miss him so much!

i'm glad i'm quitting my job

My manager, Jerrie, is a total and complete bitch.
I gave her my 2 weeks notice, and she sent me an email essentially telling me how stupid i am, and how they have ''offered me more hours but i can never work them". (direct quote from the email)
BULL SHIT!!!
I have taken almost ALL of the hours that they tell me i can work!!!
The only time i dont take the hours they've offered is when i have to watch my sis's kids, or if i already have something planned. which isnt very often.
She also said that i'm demanding a pay increase from them, when i've worked less than 3 months for them. Which is total BS. Again!
I told her i want a Different, Full Time job, where i can get a better pay and benefits.
UGH!!
I seriously hate that place, and the people that work there.
I am so glad i only have another week and a half of that place.
And BTW
When i called to find out what hours i was working this week, Jerrie only said Tuesday (yesterday), and when i got to work, she had scheduled another guy to work.
So if she thinks that i'm refusing hours, that is total and complete Bullshit!

wanting to start life

Here i am again.
Typing up 'life' on the internet. But what else do i have to do.
I left farmers to go to work only to find out they told another guy to work the shift...and this is the second time my manager has done this.
All i can say is, thank god this is my last 2 weeks working there!!!
Yup, i gave my 2 week notice yesterday.
They dont want me to go, because as Sally (owner of the kennel), told me, i'm the best kennel assistant that they've had in a long long time. I know how to handle the dogs, i dont complain, i finish my work (well, up til saturday.......long story).
but i need more money.
Hopefully this job i applyed for and interviewed for today will work out. They are a brand new place. Still under construction. Its called: Over The Top Shop.
Its a frozen yogurt shop.
Its kinda like pinkberry (if you've seen the commercial or heard of it).
So yeah.
I really want to move out of my parents house as soon as i turn 18, but many things are preventing that.
It really frustrates me. But i know that i cant rush into things.
Especially since Hernan and i will be moving in together.
But all i know is: I want to be out of my parents house by April of 2009, and NO LATER!
Basically i need to find a full time job (in the process), hold that job for a long while, save up money, find a place to live.
Etc.
So hopefully all will go to plan. But i just have this gut feeling that something is gonna come up that will prevent that.
But like i told hernan a couple days ago.
If it comes to it, i'll move in with my sis over in petaluma.
No rent, all i have to do is help with the kids.
But only time will tell what will happen.

why am i so tired today?

i dont kno why. But i've seriously slept like, half the day!
not complaining, but i'm just wondering why i am so tired, since i've been able to sleep in the past several days.
I think its just the fact that it warmed up a little bit today.
Anywhos....
I'm not working today or tomorrow, so i'm happy bout that. mostly.
I am working Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday tho.
Wednesday i have to watch the kids for my sis, cuz its her and aarons anniversary.
And Friday, is the beach trip. So that'll be fun. Hopefully its nice and clear at the beach, unlike what it was during senior week. (foggy, then windy and cold)

So yeah. Remember how i got a new rat a couple weeks ago? Well, i decided to get another one. Another baby rat.
HE'S SO CUTE!!!!!!
Well, they all are, even Tre', even tho he's old and fat. lol.
So yeah. Now i have Jasper, which is the rat i got a couple of weeks ago, he's black and white, and the newest addition is Ringo, he is Brown and White.
I came up with this plan on letting my mom let me keep them (bring them home from work telling my mom someone abandoned them there), and at first it didnt work, but after a couple of days of thinking about it, my mom decided that she is gonna let me keep them. So now my 2 baby rats are legit with my parents.
Well, my mom at least. I'm still not sure if my dad knows.
But now i'm seriously thinking about making a blog for my Rats. So i may actually do that as soon as i am done writing this entry.
I know it sounds kinda corney....but hey, i'm obsessed about my rats, and rats in general.

Til next time!

good morning

Yup yup....it be morning.

i get to go shopping for new work clothes in a couple of hours. Then i get to come home and help mi madre plant a rose garden. So yeah. not much else going on today.

There is a gay cop dancing and singing in the middle of a busy street on my tv right now. Its some wierd movie on HBO.

wierd.

its too damn hot

I hate this spur of the moment hot weather. It got to be 92 degrees or so here at my house today. It was hell. cuz it was relatively cool-ish yesterday........oh, wait.....no it wasnt...but it was definetly cooler than today.

So i got that job i mentioned a couple days ago. I'm now a Kitchen Cutlery Salesperson for the Vector company. (they sell CUTCO products....really high end stuff). It'll be fun. But i'm hella tight on money right now, so i cant wait til i get started so then i can get paid.

I'm really tired right now, but i cant sleep. Its just too damn hot....as i've said b4. I wish i lived up in washington.....cuz then it would be no hotter than like...85. ( where i want to live, it would be around 75 or so, at the highest.) ( Grays Harbor, Washington) Plus, Grays Harbor is the home port of the Lady Washington, (the ship that played the interceptor in POTC 1) which is pretty awesome.

so anyways...i'm gonna try to sleep now...maybe. or i'll just stay online for a while longer. idk yet. But either ways....i'm done writing this blog entry.

its been a while....good song

So yeah, it has been a long while since i've posted on here. Pretty much i got tired of people bugging me about it, and plus i'm bored.

I've got a job interview today, at 5:30. Its something to do with customer sales and such, and its supposed to be good pay. But we'll see how is pans out. On monday i have another job interview with this new cafe that is opening in sonoma at cornerstone. Its called sage. I really hope that i get this job, cuz i think it'll be more fun than selling random products to people. (the job i'm interviewing for today). But again, we'll see how it pans out.

oh, last week i got myself a new baby rat. His (current) name is rascal, but i'm thinking about changing it, cuz i dont think its what his 'true name' is meant to be. So if anyone has any suggestions as to rat names, let me kno....and please, nothing stupid. I just thought of something i might do: start a blog about my rats....idk, if i'm really bored, i might just do that.

so yeah, gotta go get ready for this job interview, cuz they want me to show up 15-20 minutes early. so yeah, ttyl.