18 going on 16.....?

So my 18th birthday was this past Saturday.
I spent the day with Hernan and his fam. It was fun.
But the whole day i felt like i hadnt gotten older at all. In fact, i felt like i was still 16.
Since i kinda felt the same about my 17th birthday too.
Maybe this will change with time, but i dont know. Its really annoying.

So my mom came home today from her trip up to Oregon, to check on our house up there. (my parents bought a house up there).
All she did when she got home was complained about all the things that '' I didnt do correctly" house work wise. I'm sorry if i had work, and had to cook dinner and everything for my dad, and do some school work. (i'm now a Vet Tech student at Penn Foster College. Online school)
As soon as she got home, i nearly instantly became stressed out, and doubting myself about everything.
So there for i have discovered/decided that my mom is what stresses me out the most because when she was gone, i was perfectly fine, feeling good about life, and my dad and i were actually getting along.
This is the main reason why i want to move out of this house so much. So i can actually have a chance at living my life and feeling good/confident about it.
Also, i want to really start my adult life, but living at my parents house, thats rather difficult to do when they still treat me like i'm a highschool freshman. Also, its tough to feel like an adult when my room has Johnny depp posters in it. and a pirate flag on the ceiling.
I really want to 'remodel' my room, but i have no money to do so. Plus it would be pointless if i'm going to HOPEFULLY move out in 6+ months.
I dont know what to do anymore.
I want to move out but cant.
I want to do alot of things, but cant for one reason or another.
This always seems to be the case.
Its like i'm more mature than i am, but i cant do anything about it because i am broke.
I hate many things about this life.
But at least i love at least a few things in my life
and those few things are what keep me going.

The good.....and the very bad.....RIP Jasper

The Good: Grand opening of Over the Top shop is Tomorrow. Everyone should come.


The Very Very Bad: One of my Rats, Jasper, died this morning. When i got up this morning, i looked in the cage, and Jasper was just lying there on the bottom of the cage, not moving.
I have no clue why he died, since he was so young, and he was healthy and running around yesterday. Maybe he had a heart attack, because he was extremely hyperactive.
What is really just killing me though, is that Jaspers buddy, Ringo, is looking for Jasper everywhere. In the cage and out.
I'm trying to control myself from crying uncontrollabley, but its proving to be hard to do. Very very hard to do.
Damn, why do i have to work today!?!?!?!
(pre-opening of Store)

RIP Jasper

training

Training for my new job today.
Then going with my sis for a few days.
Fun Fun!!!!
:-D

Chex

Hernans and mine little rattie boy needs to go to the vet.
He's been having raspy breathing lately.
And he'll probably need some medicine.
I've gotta talk to hernan about it.
I've found a low cost vet clinic here in napa, about 10 minutes from my house that'll see him.
They only charge a $25 fee for the vet to see him. And if he needs medicine, that'll be only about $40 or so. (hopefully less).
So yeah.
Thats all i'm up to.
Starting my new job at Over the Top Shop soon.
I do training tomorrow.
For everyone who was wondering about my new job:
I'm a cashier at this place called Over the Top Shop, over in American Canyon. Its a frozen yogurt place.
6 or 7 different flavors of frozen yogurt (that change week to week or so) And you can put about 50+ toppings on it! (50+ toppings to choose from).
Its a pretty sweet place. And since i'm in the first round of training, i'll be training other people as they come in, and i could possibly become a manager/supervisor.
So its really cool!
You all should come by when it opens!
I'll post on here and myspace/facebook when it has its grand opening.
so yeah.
Thats life so far.
My wrist hurts now (typing fast = carpultunel)

good day

its a good day today.
My mom decided to fiddle faddle all morning and so we were late to victorias birthday party. All because she didnt want to go to my sisters house.
But anywhos.
Its a nice day. Weather wise too.
So yeah.
I got a new baby rat yesterday!
He is fawn (very very very lite tan), and white.
His name is Chex.
I'll post pictures as soon as i can on myspace.
I cant post them on facebook cuz when ever i try to put pics on facebook, my whole computer freezes up, and i have to restart the whole thing.
So yeah.
Doing bday cake now.
maybe post again later!

Perty good day

I got Hernans Present today. But for the sake of him not finding out what it is, i wont say on here.
Cleaned the house this morning.
Went online.
Ate dinner.
I'm online again.
its cooling off, and its really nice. I hate the heat. It makes me really sleepy.
I have work tomorrow morning. ugh.
Luckily this is my last week working at Aberglen. YAY
Then i'll probably have a few days to a whole week off b4 i start my new job.
So yeah.
I need to get some white polo shirts for my new job. i think i'll need to borrow some money from my mom.
we'll see.

but i am le tired....

Yeah. I is tired right now.
But i cant sleep. I drank strong coffee around 7 pm. Shouldnt have dont that.
SO anyways.
I have been wanting to start a rattery (breeding rats), but couldnt because my mom wont let me. So i figured i'd just add another male rat to my group. So i posted an ad on craigslist in hopes of finding a baby boy rat.
And i got this email from a girl (same age as me) who has a rattery, and is looking for homes for a litter that one of her rats just had. So i reserved one of the male rats. (and 2 female rats for my sis) . As i talked to the girl, i told her that i wanted to start my own rattery, and she said that she would love for me to be a partner in her rattery. (i have all male rats, and she finds their temperments/personalities and colorations/markings very nice) So i am now a partner with a rattery!! :-D on my way to starting my own rattery!!!
But i wont start my own rattery until i get a place of my own. (or a place of hernans and mine)
So yeah.
OH!!!
I also got a new job!
I will now be working at Over the Top Shop in American Canyon.
Its a frozen yogurt shop. 6 different flavors of frozen yogurt at one time (it changes day to day), and over 50 different toppings that you can put on the top of the frozen yogurt.
Its pretty cool. (no pun intended) But they arent open yet. Thier grand opening is in about 2 weeks. Give or take.
So yeah.
This is my last week at Aberglen. Thank god! i work 3 days this week. So i'll get about a $60 paycheck from them as a last paycheck. Not good. But better than nothing.

So i'm going to bed now. my head hurts.
G'NIGHT!!!!!!